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will get money enough for all the demands of the mission. I have never had a fear on that head; a little exertion will do wonders; and past experi. ence justifies every confidence. Men, we only want; and God shall find them for us in due time.
"Is brother Fountain arrived? We hope he will be an acceptable remittance, and viva voce, compensate for the lack of epistolary communications.
"I rejoice in contemplating a church of our Lord Jesus Christ in Bengal, formed upon his own plan. Why do not the Hindoo converts join it Lord, help their unbelief! But perhaps the drop is now withheld, that you may by and by have the shower, and lift up your eyes, and say, "These, whence came they? They fly as clouds, and as doves to their windows." For three years, we read of few baptized by the first disciples of our Lord; but on the fourth, three thousand, and five thousand openly avowed him. The Lord send you such another Pentecost!
"I intend to write my dear brother a long letter, It will prove my desire to gratify him, if it do no more. I wish that I knew in what communications your other correspondents will be most deficient: then I would try to supply their omissions.
"I will begin with myself: but I have nothing good to say. I think I am the most vile ungrate ful servant that ever Jesus Christ employed in his church. At some times I question whether I ever knew the grace of God in truth; and at others, I hesitate on the most important points of Christian faith. I have lately had peculiar struggles of this kind with my own heart, and have often half concluded to speak no more in the name of the Lord. When I am preparing for the pulpit I fear I am going to avow fables for facts, and doctrines of men for the truths of God. In conversation I am obliged to be silent, lest my tongue should belie my heart. In prayer I know not
What to say, and at times think prayer altogether useless. Yet I cannot wholly surrender my hope, or my profession. Three things I find, above all others, tend to my preservation :-First, a recollection of a time, when, at once, I was brought to abandon the practice of sins, which the fear of damnation could never bring me to relinquish be.. fore. Surely I say, this must be the finger of God, according to the scripture doctrine of regeneration:-Secondly, I feel such a consciousness of guilt, that nothing but the gospel scheme can satisfy my mind respecting the hope of salvation :and, Thirdly, I see that what true devotion does appear in the world, seems only to be found a mong those to whom Christ is precious.
"But I frequently find a backwardness to se cret prayer, and much deadness in it and it puzzles me to see how this can be consistent with a life of grace. However, I resolve, that let what will become of me, I will do all I can for God while I live, and leave the rest to him and this I usually experience to be the best way to be at peace.
"I believe, that if I were more fully given up to God, I should be free from these distressing workings of mind; and then I long to be a Missionary where I should have temptations to nothing but to abound in the work of the Lord, and lay myself entirely out for him. In such a situation, I think pride would have but little food, and faith more occasion for exercise; so that the spiritual life, and inward religion, would thrive better than they do now.
"At times, indeed, I do feel, I trust, genuine contrition, and sincerely lament my short-comings before God. Oh the sweets that accompany true repentance! Yes, I love to be abased before God. There it is I find my blessing.". May the Lord daily and hourly bring me low, and keep me so !
"As to my public work, I find, whilst engaged in it, little cause to complain for want either for matter or words. My labours are acceptable, and not altogether unprofitable to the hearers: but what is this to me? if my own soul starves whilst others are fed by me? Oh, my brother, I need your prayers, and I feel a great satisfaction in the hope that you do not forget me. Oh that I may be kept faithful unto death! Indeed, in the midst of my strugglings, a gleam of hope, that I shall at last awake in the likeness of God, affords me greater joy than words can express. To be with Christ, is far better than to continue sinning here: but if the Lord hath any thing to do by me, His will be done.
Í have never so fully opened my case to any one before. Your freedom on similar topics encourages me to make my complaint to you, and I think, if you were near me, I should feel great relief in revealing to you all my heart. But I shall fatigue you with my moanings; so I will have done on this subject.
"It is not long since I returned from a kind of a mission to Ireland. A society is established in Dublin for the purpose of inviting from England, ministers of various denominations, to assist in promoting the interests of the kingdom of Christ there. Some of our Baptist brethren had been there before me, as Rippon, Langdon, Francis, and Birt; and I think the plan is calculated for usefulness. I have, at Dr. Rippon's request, sent him some remarks on my visit, for the Register; but as it is probable you will receive this before that comes to hand, I will say something of my excursion here.
Having engaged to spend six Lord's days in that kingdom, I arrived there the day before the first Sabbath in June. I first made myself acquainted with the general state of religion in
Dublin. I found there were four Presbyterian congregations; two of these belong to the southern presbytery, and are Arians or Socinians; the other two are connected with the northern presbytery, and retain the Westminister confession of faith. One of these latter congrega. tions is very small, and the minister, though orthodox, appears to have but little success The
other is large and flourishing: the place of worship ninety feet by seventy, and in a morning, well filled. Their times of public service are at half past eleven, and five. In the afternoon, the usual congregations are smail indeed; for five 'o'clock is the dining hour in Dublin, and few of the hearers would leave their dinners for the gospel. Dr. Mc. Dowal is the senior pastor of this church, a very affectionate, spiritual man. The junior is Mr. Horner. The doctor is a warm friend to the Society, at whose request I went over to Ireland.
"There is one congregation of Burgher Seceders, and another of Antiburghers. The latter will not hear any man who is not of their own cast; the former are much more liberal. I preached for them once, and they affectionately solicited a repetition of my services.
Lady Huntingdon's connexion has one society here, the only one in the kingdom, perhaps, except at Sligo, where there is another. It is not large, and I fear rather declining. There is not one independent church in the kingdom. There were ten Baptist Societies in Ireland: they are. now reduced to six; and are, I fear, still on the decline.
"The inhabitants of Dublin seem to be chiefly composed of two classes: the one assume the appearance of opulence; the other exhibit marks of the most abject poverty; and as there are no parishes in Ireland which provide for the poor,
many die every year for the want of the ncces saries of life.
"Most of the rich are by profession protest ants; the poor are nearly all papists, and strongly prejudiced against the reformed religion. Their ignorance and superstition are scarcely inferior to your miserable Hindoos. On midsum mer day I had an affecting proof of the latter. On the public road, about a mile from Dublin, is a well, which was once included in the precincts of a priory, dedicated to St. John of Jerusalem. This well is in high repute for curing a number of bodily complaints, and its virtues are said to be most efficacious on the saint's own day. So from twelve o'clock at night, for twenty four hours, it becomes the rendezvous for all the lame, blind, and otherwise diseased people, within a circuit. of twenty miles. Here they brought old and young, and applied the "holy water," both internally and externally; some by pouring, some by immersion, and all by drinking: whilst, for the good of those who could not come in person, their friends filled bottles with the efficacious water to use at home. Several I saw on their knees before the well, at their devotions, who were not unfrequently interrupted with a glass of whiskey. With this they were supplied from a number of dealers in that article, who kept standings all round the well.
Near the spot, was a church-yard where great numbers kneeled upon the tombs of their deceased relatives, and appeared earnestly engaged in praying for the repose of their souls.
"It was truly a lamentable sight. My heart ached at their delusions, whilst I felt gratitude, I hope, unfeigned, for an acquaintance with the water of life, of which, if a man drink, he shall live forever
"There are few, or none, of the middle class To connect the rich and the poor, so that faveug