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That the person so required was found that so many and unusual attributes were combined in one individual is known to us all. But it seems to have been reserved for our own age of biography and minute research, fully to trace all the qualifications of Saul of Tarsus for his great mission, and to point their examples in his extraordinary career.*


(Continued from page 110.) Of the means used by Leila to make known to her father the great change which she had experienced, she writes in her diary :

"I have this night laid a letter upon my father's dressing table; in it I have detailed the change which has taken place in my soul; in it I have avowed my belief in Jesus of Nazareth, and the joy and peace which I experience in believing. O, that it may do him the good I árdently pray for, that it may lead him to embrace the Gospel of Christ. I have committed it to God; I leave it in Thy hands, O my Father; bless it, I beseech Thee. This whole night do I intend to devote to special wrestling with Thee, for the salvation of my dear father.

“And now, I beseech Thee, be Thou my helper. Choose Thou for me my future portion; be my inheritance, calm my agitated spirit; have I not committed the event to Thee? ), be with me on the morrow, when I shall be questioned respecting the hope that is in me; do Thou be

* “ Edinburgh Review."

very present with me, and enable me to speak as becomes a temple of the living God, May I be saved from bringing any disgrace or disrepute upon the religion of Jesus, that Divine cause which now possesses my heart. May my feet be firmly fixed upon the rock, Christ Jesus ! and then, whatever shall occur, whether I live or die, I shall be happy, for I shall be the Lord's.”

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The following is part of the letter to which Leila refers :

“ My very, very dear Father,-Do you love me? O how plainly I hear you say, how can my dear daughter ask me this question; has not she had proofs of my affection again and again? Does she not know that she is dearer to me than all the world beside ? But, my very dear father, do you love me? do you love me? Yes, I know that you

love me, dearly love me; and, my dear father, I love you most tenderly; most deeply; so as no language I could think upon could describe to you; and I know that you believe that I do. Well then, my father, will you not rejoice whilst your daughter tells you of the goodness of God as manifested towards her, a poor, sinful, guilty creature. O, I do so fear you will distrust His delightful work, and yet not from wilful unkindness neither, but from what you will believe to be a proper sense of duty. But, my dear father, with tears of joy coursing down her cheeks, your Leila tells you that she knows, she feels that all her sins are forgiven through the blood-shedding of Jesus of Nazareth. O, be mild while I speak further, and yet I am faint, and my hand trembles so that I can scarce go forward...

“I am so happy. O! my dear father, if

you did know how very happy, I am quite sure of this, you would rejoice with me; you would not hesitate a single moment, but would come as you are invited, and drink largely of those fountains of bliss, the streams whereof make glad the city of God. I feel that God loves me, and that I love Him. I feel that I am His child, and I have through grace a blissful assurance that, saved by my blessed Redeemer, I shall see Him and be happy in His presence to all eternity. And will you not come to heaven, too, my dearest father.

“Do not suppose that I am mistaken, or that I am deceiving myself. O, no! I am as sure that all my sins are forgiven through Christ Jesus, as I am of the being of God Himself. I could tell you the very minute when I first received this conviction, and was enabled to rejoice in God my Saviour. And if you, my dear papa, would in the same way test its reality, by possessing for yourself a knowledge of the love of God, it would alone be quite sufficient to convince you

of the truth of the Christian religion. When under the influence of joy, no argument, however forcible or sophisticated, could convince you that sorrow filled your heart. The result of faith in Christ is peace and joy in believing; to this my experience bears testimony. What further proof can I wish that its origin is divine? I do not. I have this internal consciousness, and am as certain of it as of anything that affects my external senses.

“ With great propriety we always attach importance to a remedy that has been tried, and more especially, too, if the individual recommending it has personally proved it to be


efficacious. I once was very unhappy. Instead of submitting myself to the righteousness of God, I was going about to establish my own righteous

At this time I was sunk in sin, and knew not where to look for one ray of comfort. My whole soul hungered for food my religion could not give; it groped in its deep night for some pillow on which to repose itself, and find the dawnings of heaven, but all was in vain till it found repose in the wounded side of Jesus; and here may

I abide for ever! Allow me then, my dear father, in fullest filial affection to recommend to you this remedy. I know you are not happy; you cannot be happy as you are at present, and this is the only cure, and it is the never-failing cure for a weary, sin-sick soul.

I need not tell you the train of circumstances which, in a gracious and benignant providence, God used to produce this sweet change of course you will understand me as meaning instrumentally; to God's Holy Spirit alone am I indebted for that illumination which enabled me to see His way salvation. And O, it is so simple--only believe!

. • Whosoever believeth on Him (that is Christ) shall be saved !' • Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to every one that believeth.'

“ But the proofs that the Messiah has come, and that Jesus of Nazareth is the Messiah, are numberless, unmistakeable, and positive. Shall. I go on? I must hope that you will bear with me.

“ The law, which was given by Jehovah to Moses

upon Mount Sinai, was designed for that land which was given to our great ancestor Abraham, and for that land only, for it cannot be fulfilled in any other; therefore, through the dispersion of our nation, we are in the position of a


people who have a law given to them by God, which they cannot obey. From what we know of the Divine government, we are sure that it cannot consist with the wisdom and character of God, that this shall still be the law by which we are governed.

“ But let us see why it is impracticable, although I scarcely need, for you know all this as well as I: then I will only refer to our want of a sacrifice. It is commanded that our worship be presented to God by a priest of the tribe of Levi, and of the family of Aaron; but we cannot now tell our families or tribes, the genealogies being lost. And as we have no priest to offer sacrifice, we distinguish one of our number as a chief rabbi, a person not mentioned in the law as given to Moses.

* And is not our destitution of a sacrifice and a priesthood bewailed in our service as a great calamity? In one of the prayers that are offered on that day, which, when we had a priesthood, was the Great Day of Atonement, is thisexpression : • Woe unto us, for we have no Mediator!' And to make up for this want of a sacrifice, we have transgressed the law by our invention of rites and observances ; a course expressly forbidden.

“ Before this I might have said that unquestionably the law of Moses is not perfect, inasmuch as it leaves some sins without an atonement; but this is to teach us to look forward beyond the type to the great Antitype--even the Messiah.

“ All our nation, and all Christians believe that the Old Testament writings give promise of a Redeemer, who will save His people from their sins. The prophecies in reference to this are most explicit, so that if we will diligently study

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