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cumstances above mentioned, induced Mr. T. to determine upon Calcutta for his residence; and I intend to take land of Brahmuns, or other natives, and settle in the neighbourhood, and wait till I see the event of things. You see that I have not been following my own plan; but I confess that I have complied with Mr. T.'s wishes contrary to my own private judgment. I think it the most practicable of any, notwithstanding; and am, myself, going to adopt it immediately, unless the Lord should appear, and more liberally supply me, by giving me the employment I mentioned. This would be a pleasant and profitable amusement, and would take up very little of time. This, however, I leave with God.

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'I have already learned so much of the language, as to understand a few phrases, and many words; but having so many who speak English about me, is a disadvantage. The characters are about six hundred, which I send you a specimen of. * * * *

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'Since I have been here, my family has been much afflicted; my wife and two eldest children have been very ill for a month past, and my eldest son is now far from being out of danger. These things are a great affliction, and severely felt; but I trust that all will work for good, and in the end bring forth fruit to the praise and glory of God. Through divine mercy, I have all along enjoyed very good health, and so has my sister; the rest of us are all much better, except Felix. If my family were but hearty in the work, I should find a great burden removed; but the carnal discourse of the passage, and the pomp and grandeur

of Europeans here, have intoxicated their minds, so as to make them unhappy in one of the finest countries in the world, and lonely in the midst of a hundred thousand people. These are burdens and afflictions to me; but I bless God that I faint not; and when my soul can drink her fill at the word of God, I forget all. Mr. T. is a very good man, but only fit to live at sea, where his daily business is before him, and daily provision made for him. I own, I fear that his present undertaking will be hurtful rather than useful to him; the fickleness of his mind makes him very unfit for such an undertaking. I love him, and we live in the greatest harmony; but I confess that Ram Ram Boshoo is much more a man after my heart. He is a faithful counsellor, and a discerning man. He is very inquisitive and intelligent, though, I am sorry to say, his timidity has been a snare to him. He is, I doubt not, a truly converted man; and if he wants anything, it is zeal. I have been seriously talking with him to-day, and hope that in a little time I may see a church formed for God; but time alone can show this. The superstitions and religious follies of this people I know too little of to say much about, and long observation alone can tell precisely what they are. They worship one God, and have tolerable notions of his moral perfections, except that they uniformly believe him to be the cause of sin. Their ideas of redemption are very confused. All their

supposed gods are good men departed, or useful creatures; and they suppose that offerings made to them are acceptable to God. Polygamy is very

common, but lying and cheating are their national character. As I observe more, I shall communicate

more.

'I hope, when you sold my furniture, you did not forget to pay yourself what i was indebted to you. But I must conclude with my warmest love to all your friends, all ministers of my acquaintance, and all who love God: but, especially, I am very affectionately yours,

'Rev. J. Sutcliff, Olney.'

JOURNAL CONTINUED.

'W. CAREY.'

'Jan. 15, 16. On the first of these days, I received an account that I may have as much land as I please, for three years, for nothing, and after that, to pay a small rent per annum. I therefore went to Mr. T. to consult him, and to obtain money; when I found that my all was expended, and that Mr. T. was already in debt. I was much dejected at this. I am in a strange land, alone, no christian friend, a large family, and nothing to supply their wants. I blame Mr. T. for leading me into such expense at first, and I blame myself for being led; though I acceded to what I much disapproved of, because I thought he knew the country better, and was in earnest to go and live up the country; and that, for a week or two, while we sold our venture, it would be a greater expense to have a separate house and servants than for us to live together. I am dejected, not for my own sake, but my family's, and his, for whom I tremble. He is now at the certain expense of £400 per annum; and unless

he has speedy practice, he must be irrecoverably involved. I must borrow five hundred rupees, if I can; with which I intend to build a hut or two, and retire to the wilderness. There are many serpents and tigers, but Christ has said his followers shall take up serpents, &c. unhurt.

Was very much dejected

'1794, Jan. 17. Went to Calcutta to Mr. T. for money, but to no purpose. all day. Have no relish for any thing of the world, yet am swallowed np in its cares. Towards evening, had a pleasant view of the all-sufficiency of God, and the stability of his promises, which much relieved my mind; and as I walked home in the night, was enabled to roll my soul and all my cares in some measure on God. On my coming home, I found all much more calm than I expected; for which I bless God, and pray that he may direct us into the patient waiting for Christ. What a mercy it is to have a God; and how miserable must they be who have no knowledge of or value for the throne of grace!

18. I find the ardour of my mind after divine things less, and my soul too much swallowed up with the things of this present world. O that I could live entirely to and for God!

19. This day, as every sabbath since we have been in the country, we went among the natives. For these three last Lord's-days we have discoursed to a pretty large congregation at Manicktullo bazaar or market; for we have just the same business done here on that day as any other. Our congregation consisted principally of mahomedans, and has increased every Lord's

day. They are very inquisitive, and we have addressed them upon the subject of the gospel with the greatest freedom, and in the following manner. A burialplace, with a consecrated tomb, where offerings are daily made to the spirit of the departed person was near; some inquiries about the reason of their offerings were made, which led on to questions on their part; and then the gospel and the koran insensibly became the subject of conversation. They alleged the divine original of the koran; we inquired, 'Have you ever seen or read it?' The universal answer was, No! But to-day a man came who pretended to have seen it. We asked him if he knew the beginning of every chapter, for the chapters all begin with these words: 'In the name of God, gracious and merciful;' but he said no, for it was written in Arabic, and no one could understand it. The question now was, 'Then how can you obey it?' and 'wherefore are you mahomedans?' To this they could not reply. They said, and so says the koran, that the koran was sent to confirm the words of scripture. We insisted that the bible said, 'Whosoever shall add to or diminish from the word of God, shall be under the curse of God;' but the koran was written after the bible, and pretends to divine authority: therefore, if the gospel be true, Mahomed must be accursed, and the koran of no authority; and if the bible be not true, the koran cannot, for that, you say, was to confirm it. They answered, that the jews and christians had corrupted the bible, which was the reason why God made the revelation by Mahomed. We answered,

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