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nearly opposite to the place where I now am, on the other side of the river. Several villages are in the neighbourhood, and provisions are as cheap as at any place in Bengal. The river Jubona, which is as large as the Hoogly at Calcutta, separates us from Deharta. 'From that time to the 23rd, employed in the same work. I meet with great kindness from Mr. Short, with whom I am; but he is a stranger to religion, and I cannot therefore enjoy that freedom which I could at home. My soul is barren, and absorbed in temporal things. Lord, enlarge my heart!

SECTION II.

MR. THOMAS'S ACCOUNT OF HIS VISIT TO MALDA-INVITATION OF HIMSELF AND MR. CAREY TO REMOVE THITHER-MR. CAREY'S JOURNAL CONTINUED-ACCOUNT OF DEMONIACS-JOURNEY TO MALDA, ARRIVAL, &c.

A DISPENSATION of providence now occurs, as decisively favourable to Mr. Carey's desires as every thing heretofore had been adverse and thwarting. As in securing the ship and arranging for the voyage to India, so in dissipating Mr. C.'s present gloom, and supplying the means of relief and future comfort and usefulness to him, Mr. Thomas was the active agent. George Udney, Esq., then of Malda, was a religious friend, well known to Mr. T. during his former residence in Bengal, and liberally contributed to his support whilst acquiring the language and making his first missionary efforts; but, from some disrelish of his constitutional peculiarities, was induced to withdraw his countenance. This gentleman is now overwhelmed with domestic affliction. Mr. Thomas, with prompt, ingenuous kindness, as though no contrariety of feeling between them had ever arisen, interposes the expression of his sympathy : this is acceptable to his christian friend. Mr. T. then goes a journey of two hundred miles to offer his condolence in person: mutual greetings and floods of tears testify their sincere and fervent affection, and the readiness of each party to obliterate all that was painful in the recollections of their former connection.

Mr. Udney was at this time erecting two additional indigo factories in the same district, to the superintendence of which he invites Mr. T. and his desolate and all but heart-broken friend, with such overtures as would afford competent support to their respective families, and leave a surplus applicable to the furtherance of their missionary labours. By this means, too, Mr. C. became introduced to associations, both European and native, favourable to his ministerial influence, and was able to commence and vigorously pursue studies preliminary and indispensable to those final and momentous labours, a retrospect of which justified his declaration upon his dying bed: 'I have not a single wish ungratified.' Mr. Thomas's statement shall introduce the reader to the knowledge of this eventful crisis in Mr. Carey's life and plans.

MR. THOMAS TO MR. FULler.

'Ever since we have been here we have found it impossible to keep within our income, though we all lived in one house to save rent, and kept but one table. In the midst of our contrivances to live, one of my creditor's agents came upon me with a bond in hand, who seemed not violent, though hardly satisfied. I took a house at Calcutta, thinking my attention to some business might relieve us, and recover my circumstances. As to Mr. Udney, I had entertained hopes of his helping us in any emergent distress; but as he had declined the support of the mission, I never applied to him for help, though I find since I should have been sure to have had it.

And now being just got into my new house, I received a letter from Mr. Udney, which has given a wonderful turn in its issue to all our affairs and situation, especially with respect to the mission. This letter was in answer to a consoling epistle I had sent to him on the sickness of his mother, which was occasioned by the very affecting loss of her son, who was drowned with his wife, by their boat oversetting as they were crossing Calcutta river. In this letter I had said that, on hearing she was sick, I nearly set off to Malda, but business prevented. Mr. Udney replied, with a very pressing and affectionate invitation, with proposals to accommodate me at his expense, &c. I went we met, with two hearts overflowing with affectionate remembrances of each other, and recollection of the sad occasion of our meeting now. Many tears fell, and many steps were taken, before one word was uttered on either side. We went and mingled our tears with his dear mother, who lay smarting under the afflicting hand of God, in body and mind, carrying about with her deep marks of heart-breaking grief. The same morning I directed her to get a word from Christ, by preaching from Cant. viii. 13. I fatigued her body with long walks, hoping thereby to make the mind less capable of grief; and the Lord blessed, &c.'

MR. CAREY'S JOURNAL.

'March. 1. After having been employed in building me a house, and almost finished it, I received an invitation this day to go up to Malda, to superintend

an indigo manufactory. This appearing to be a remarkable opening in divine providence, for our comfortable support, I accepted it; so that we are still unsettled: but I only wait to receive another letter, in order to set off this long journey of two hundred and fifty miles with all my family.

2-4. In this state of uncertainty, nothing but suspense and vacancy of mind is experienced; though I have the great pleasure of hoping that the mission may be abundantly forwarded by having a number of the natives under my immediate inspection, and at the same time, my family be well provided for. Though I have no doubt respecting provision, even here, yet, too great a part of my time must have been necessarily employed in managing my little farm with my own hands. I shall likewise be joined with my colleague again, and we shall unitedly engage in our work. O that my soul were not so barren and unfruitful in the work and ways of God!

5. Still I mourn my barrenness, and the foolish wanderings of my mind. Surely I shall never be of any use among the heathen, I feel so very little of the life of godliness in my own soul. It seems as if all the sweetness that I have formerly felt was gone; neither am I distressed, but a guilty calm is spread over my soul, and I seem to spend all my time, and make no progress towards the desired port, either in a public or private way. I am full of necessities, yet am not distressed; I want wisdom to know how to direct all my concerns, and fortitude and affectionate concern for the glory of God, and faith, and holiness

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