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ployed. I find it is not enough to have it set upon duty, sin, death, or eternity: these are important; but as the gospel is the way of a sinner's deliverance, so evangelical truth should, and will, when it is well with him, mostly occupy his thoughts. But alas, in the afternoon I felt peevish and uncomfortable.

*4, 5, 6. Deadness and carnality prevailed these days. I have no opportunities for retirement, and what is worse, little heart to retire: perhaps this is the reason why I excuse myself by saying, I have no place.

67. Arrived at Bassetpore, at the place where Isamuty river runs out of the Ganges. I was busied most part of the day in procuring sails, making ropes, &c. for our boats, to go up the Ganges. Towards evening, went into the river, but ran upon a sand-bank, and was forced to come to under an island. The river at this place is eight or nine miles wide, but abounds with shallows. Was in a very unpleasant state most part of the day.

'8. Sailed in the Ganges, and in the evening arrived at Bowlea, where we lay to for the sabbath, to-morrow. Felt thankful that God had preserved us, and wondered how he can regard so mean a creature. Was enabled this evening to wrestle with God in prayer for many of my dear friends in England. Several of my friends at Leicester lay very near to my heart; and several ministers of my most intimate acquaintance: I seemed to feel much on their account. The society was an object of my desires likewise. This was a time of refreshing to my soul indeed.

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“9. I have this day had more enjoyment of God than for many days past. I trust that the reading of the bible has been truly useful to my soul. Had some affecting views of the value of Christ, and grace, whilst reading part of M‘Laurin's Treatise on Christian Piety. Felt enlarged in prayer, and thankful for the many mercies which I daily receive from

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my unprofitableness has been a source of humiliation to me. Kept sabbath to-day near a place called Rampore Bowlea, on the banks of the Ganges.

10. Pursued our journey on the Ganges; twice were stuck fast on some shallows, which hindered us much, and were the cause of some anxiety; but yet had a day of mercy, though yet a day of negligence, and disregard in a great measure of the loss of communion with God.

*11. This evening arrived at the entrance of the river Mahanunda, which goes to Malda. Had some little enjoyment of God to-day; but travelling with a family is a great hinderance to holy, spiritual meditation.

‘12, 13, 14. Proceeded up the river Mahanunda, and arrived this evening at Boolahaut, about six miles from Malda. Much mercy has followed us all through this journey; and, considering the

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weak state of my wife, we have been supported beyond expectation. Travelling, in general, I have always found unfriendly to the progress of the divine life in my soul; but travelling with a family more particularly

Yet, through the mercy of God, I have not been without some seasons of enjoyment and inward delight

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in God, though mixed with an awful degree of coldness and inattentiveness, to that which, when attended to, has always been productive of the greatest pleasure and satisfaction to my soul.

• 15. Received a note from Mr. Udney, inviting us all to the factory; to which place we went, and arrived there about twelve o'clock. Found Mr. Udney and his mother very agreeable people indeed, and had once more the happiness of joining in prayer with those who love God.

• 16. This day I preached twice at Malda, where Mr. Thomas met me. In the morning had much enjoyment, and though our congregation did not exceed sixteen, yet the pleasure that I felt in having my tongue once more loosed, I can hardly describe : was enabled to be faithful, and felt a sweet affection for immortal souls.

* 17, 18. Had much serious conversation and sweet pleasure these days. I feel now as if released from a prison, and enjoying the sweets of christian fellowship again. O that our labours

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prosperous, and our hearts made glad to see the work of the Lord carried on with vigour. Surely the Lord is not thus making room for us, and removing every difficulty, without some gracious design! I much desire a spirit of activity and affection.

* 19. To-day Mr. Udney told me that my salary was to be two hundred rupees per month, and commission upon all the indigo that is sold; and that next year he intended to present me with a share in the works ; so that my situation is very eligible. His

manner of conferring these favours upon us (for our situations are alike) was admirable: “I always,' said he, “join the interest of those I employ in places of trust with my own; so that no obligation lies upon you whatsoever more than others.' Resolved to write immediately to the society in England, that they send me no more supplies, as I shall have an ample sufficiency. This gives me great pleasure, as I hope they may the sooner be able to send another mission somewhere ; and I should much recommend Sumatra, or some of the Indian islands. If they send to any part south or east of Bengal, it will be best to send them in a foreign ship to Bengal, from whence their passage may be taken in a country ship to any place; and as we have houses here they may stay with either of us till an opportunity offers, which will save much expense.

CHAPTER IV.

SECTION I.

IMPROVEMENT IN MR. CAREY'S SECULAR CIRCUMSTANCES—COMMENCES HIS EN

GAGEMENTS--PROPOSES TO RELINQUISH HIS SUPPORT FROM THE SOCIETY

LETTER TO MR. SU TCLIFF.

We have hitherto met with little in the life of Mr. Carey but discouragement and affliction. The scene is now relieved, and he is introduced to comparative comfort; at least delivered from want, and its consequent humiliation and anxieties. Not that his engagements yielded him any very large return ; two hundred rupees per month, which was the salary apportioned him, could have left him but a trifling surplus when the wants of a large family were supplied. Mrs. Carey's indisposition so increased upon her, that she was quite incapable of regulating the domestic economy; nor need any who are acquainted with social life in India be informed, that the peculation of native servants is so universal and unremitted, through all the details of expenditure, that no item is ever excepted from it; and managed, too, with such perfect system and so much subtlety, as to escape detection under the most wakeful superintendence, and to defy all control. Yet, notwithstanding these social disadvantages, he spared from one-third to onefourth of his income for missionary purposes. For,

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